i’ve been single almost three weeks now and i think tonight’s the first time i’ve actually cried alone. it hurts, you know? it HURTS. hurting is part of being alive and i tell myself that as i feel my chest constrict. this isn’t a disease. it will cease.
the lump in my throat. the ache. it will go away. i did the right thing. i know this more than i know anything, almost. that doesn’t change the sound coming out of my wet face as i write these words. catch my breath, catch my breath. calm, calm. breathe deep, this air. this air will sustain you. this air is dry, seems uncaring, but this air holds you when you sleep.
tv (online) diet. the way i deal with the beginnings of breakups. escape, somewhere funnier. watching, watching. quiet, brain.
usually i feel ok but sadness is allowed, absolutely. lucky me, i’m getting better at being nice to me.
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