i didn’t go to work today. i don’t feel good but not like a shouldn’t have gone to work but more of a… i don’t know what i’m doing! not feeling good. my apartment is a mess. i tried to reorganize and clean today but it kind of only put me into a frenzy of dissatisfaction. right now, i don’t even know where to start. i’m in the place where i want to throw everything away. honestly, i would’ve done a lot more of that already but i’m down to the last two garbage bags. sadly, that’s enough to stop me.
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i feel overheated. bordering on frantic. trying to chill out but am having a difficult time of it. wtf is wrong here? with me, right now? eff it. i’m going to do some thing-tossing. meaning, figure out a way to haul it down and out to the dumpster and say fuck it, goodbye shit i can’t find a place for.
this is weird especially because usually when i feel this frenzied need to clean, i’m pms-y and today i’m not even close. it’s a weird feeling… but don’t worry, i’ll be fine.
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