i just said to myself “i’m a fucking adult!” it was funny to hear it, but i felt it suddenly, like a new realization. i mean, i know that, you know? but something’s clicking. things are moving forward. i’m happy. i’m moving soon, then i’ll be done with my classes, then i’ll be in a cool new place with goodness ahead. i made myself a hot lunch today- i’m eating it now, actually- chicken, mashed potatoes, prig khing (spicy thai) green beans. yum. i have class soon and we’re climbing today, but i don’t know how high. the car place called and my car’s ready- i had the window motor fixed. i’m driving a huge bright white brand new ford taurus. it’s hilarious, cuz i would never buy a car like this, but it’s kind of fun to drive. it’s automatic, feels big and kind of like a cop car, (people have been getting out of my way) and it has good pick up. i think these are all contributing factors to me feeling like an adult. they tell me it’s $300 and i have it. planned into my budget right now. planned! into the budget!
there was an earthquake this morning, and i was peeing. it was a very weird position to be in. don’t think i’ve ever experienced an earthquake without pants on before. i wasn’t sure if i was awake, cuz i had been up for maybe 5 minutes or less… but then i knew that there’s no other sensation like that one, of the earth moving beneath you in that way. i love it. i’ve never been in a bad one, and i don’t wish it at all- still, i wish there was a way to feel that sensation for a little longer. it always seems to end by the time your brain comprehends it and a-ha’s.
but, maybe it’s because it’s fleeting that i love it so.
it’s friday! thank god, this week has been trying to knock me down. i’ve been in good spirits and have been determined to stay positive- i need to be for the next couple weeks, because there’s a lot going on. i’ve successfully navigated through all the haters of the week, and am ready to relax a bit with people i like lots. and writing a paper and studying. it’s my time, though, and even if i’m cleaning, it’s cuz i wanna. yay!
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