Our Lady of Divine Intervention

so, i need to stop starting sentences with “so”.

i have to stop checking myspace and facebook compulsively ALL DAY LONG!  i recently discovered that i could check them both on my phone, and so i do.  too much.  stop it and do something else, me!

also, i need to stop watching tv/netflix during the day. somehow, i lose track of time and end up disappointed at how much time i’ve lost to the tube. not the boob tube, in my world it’s become the “boo tube” as in “boo on me, i lost a day.”

on a happier note, my mom and i are going to portland to visit my sister in october. i can’t wait. i’ve never been there before and anticipate loving it, plus time with mom and sis will be brilliant.

that’s all for now, just a quickie to say hi. hi!

xo

it’s very late and i’m happy.

had a good day. a really good day, actually.

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feeling better.

realizing why i feel sad is important so that i can stop feeling sad. it occurred to me that duh, my sister is married and far away, one of my best girls here in indy is now married- and no matter what she says, things are not the same as they were… and they won’t be again. that’s ok. i love her, she’s obviously very happy with her husband, but as for out relationship, it has changed. it won’t be the happy-go-lucky way it used to be, simply because now there’s him instead of just us. not to say that’s so terrible, just how it is. this all in the last month or so. also stopped smoking, yay! but there goes another coping mechanism i relied on for many years. it’s ok, it’s ok.

Continue reading ‘okey doke.’

i’m still around, doncha worry. just feeling a little down lately.

cuz i quit smoking? cuz my job makes me wanna scream? or cuz gas is so expensive that no matter what i seem to do it doesn’t matter? or cuz i’m 30 and don’t know what to do with myself and the gas price thing doesn’t help with the “poor all the time feel like a loser” syndrome? (i barely drive anywhere that’s not work and home. sad.)

i’ll be back to bloggity blah blah blogging before too long.

until then…

don’t worry, and smooch!

needless to say, i had a magical time. the communing with nature and lovely folks really made me feel good and centered and relaxed. and loved. by people i don’t see often. that’s precious and priceless, you know?

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i don’t really know where to start.

i’ll be back sometime this weekend to give the grand update with photos. short version?

my sister’s wedding: adorable, sweet, fun, and perfect.

camping in big sur: spirit-lifting, rejuvenating, gorgeous, fun, and a reminder that there are people i won’t see for years and still, when we do see each other, there will be a comfort and ease that’s hard to find anywhere else. ahh, old friends as family. absolutely lovely.

my sister’s wedding was this last weekend, and it was beautiful, touching, hilarious, sweet, and an all-around fantastic time. it’s always great to be in the presence of a couple who so obviously adore each other.

my sister is gorgeous!

tomorrow, i head to california to camp in big sur with friends i love dearly and rarely see these days. oh, adulthood, you sly fox. i can do whatever i want except afford to see them all whenever i want. i’ll be back next tuesday, late, and have to work the rest of the week after that. i’ll try to post a few more wedding photos as well as absolutely lovely photos of big sur when i return and catch up on a bit of sleep. at least my return flight’s not a red-eye… i can’t do those easily anymore, they just make me feel old and exhausted for like 4 days after. i’d rather pay a bit more for convenience. see? i am a good american!

things here are crazy. this time, instead of fighting it, i’m just going with it. it’s actually working out pretty well…

but, yesterday was… a bummer, for lack of a better term. a guy who’s very well known here in indy for being a sound engineer as well as a talented musician, was found dead at a local recording studio- died of an overdose. only 37. had an adorable son with bright red curly hair who’s only 3 or 4.

saw on the local news a terrible child abuse case in kokomo, indiana, only about 20 minutes north of where i grew up- and one of the girls involved was a girl i went to school with. it’s fucking tragic. she’s my age, 30, but was never in my classes, she was in special ed. so when i saw comments from people like “there’s no punishment bad enough for them” i agree, in a way, but also know that this girl was not well. at all. very very surprised that she was even allowed to keep a child, actually. the baby daddy lived in another town and was supposedly “shocked” that this was going on, and i could only think- you had a baby with this obviously- and i mean OBVIOUSLY- not normal, mentally ill woman, and you are surprised that she didn’t take good care of it ? still, horrible and tragic in every way.

on happier but still weird notes- friends are pregnant or actively trying, my sister will be married on saturday… life continues to continue.

so today was supposed to be my final class for “adventure/challenge: experiential education” which meant we played a lot of group building activities that were cheesy but fun. i’m cheesy, so… it worked out well. this week’s class was canceled due to an big storm a-headin this way. it just started raining, in fact, and i hear my first thunderclap as i write this. luckily, last week we were on the ropes course, too. although a lot of folks in the class tried a few things, saying they’d do the rest this week, i did everything i could. it was not easy, but it was rewarding and fun. i wasn’t nervous, even though it was basically a big obstacle course, 40ft in the air. the harness i wore made me feel pretty confident that i wouldn’t fall to my death- and, luckily, i didn’t!

Continue reading ‘ropes course, etc.’

every late winter/early spring, i think to myself how wonderful it will be when it’s warm again. Oh, the plans i make and the things i talk about doing: this year, i’m going to take advantage of blah blah blah… well, this spring and summer, for real, i am going to do them. here is a list-in-progress:

Continue reading ‘things i wanna do this summer: a list.’